Perspective

Wowser.

Looking back at old posts on here is crazy! I am crazy! Sheesh. I feel so much older now even though so much of it isn't more than a couple of years old. I guess at this time in life every year makes a big difference, age-wise.

Things are so outwardly stable. Asa and I, going strong. Library School. Still employed.
So much has changed, but so much is the same.
Best friends are married.
Asa's Grad School is almost over and mine has just begun.
I'm still at the same desk in the same glass box from 9-5.
In the same City that I love to be tortured by.
Andrew's girlfriend...works here too.
He and I can't communicate anymore.
There are still twinges, but I'm rarely overwhelmed anymore.

I still want more with Asa...though he has bluntly explained that he is madly in love with me and has never felt this way with anyone. Why do I still doubt? Maybe because it took so long to break through his wall, his guard...and he is content with so much less than me.

Meh.
I want to start blogging more again. Gonna try.