Better than being bored?

Oh dear God.

Do I attract or create drama? Hard to say.
Apparently my pheromones shout, "make me feel uncomfortable!" and "please, be awkward!"
It's uncanny.

After one meeting, he knows my biggest flaw. The one I just recently admitted too. How do I deal with that? I am absolutely not available for someone like that.

However, am I really available on a convenience basis? I am trying to be, because I think it is all I should be commiting too. When really, I should probably just be dealing with myself. It goes against my nature to act different ways with different people. I hate being forced into it for the sake of social stability. Argh

The whole city feels eery today. I think the conditions are exactly the same as they were 5 years ago.
My stomach feels a little sick.