Fucking Depressing.

Ah, back to the old karma.
It's sure catching up now.

I think I understand now why cutters do what they do. And alcoholics. And masochists of all creeds. Physical pain can feels good when your emotional pain in intense of enough.
How long is this going to take?
Come on happiness and success, where are you? Yoo hoo? Hey?

Oh, you mean I made a mistake? I am going to be miserable forever? Ooohhhh, I see.
It's my own fault? No one can help me but myself? Oh, gotchya. Well then, that puts a whole new twist on things...